Life is changing.

It's been a while since I posted something on here. I have my reasons for that.

These past months flew by like it was nothing.

I must say. It wasn't the best time of my life in this period. I dont really Like to talk about it, but I wanted to continue my blog.

So I decided to collect some courage and post my thoughts and the things that happened, so I can go on with my love for writing.

So here it goes.

First, I Broke up with my gf. I had my reasons for it. I am not going to mention it.

Second, sigh-
I failed my school exam... I know.. I am bad..

I shouldn't have underestimated school.
It was my own fault. I used to blame my parents for being to hard for me during my last year of 'highschool'
(in Dutch, we have something Like a high school. Its called; voortgezet onderwijs or middelbare school)

But later, I realised that I was the one being wrong. My parents only wanted to help me. I did a lot of things wrong, which led to failure of my finals. but I will mention the most important one.

-I should have studied better
:Instead of gaming at least 2 times a week.
I should have do my homework more and learn for my tests better.

I regret this one a lot...

But the beginning of school is coming closer, way too soon in my opinion.

On the other hand, I am actually excited for school. This time, I won't fail.
I will graduate this year. I have to.

To make my friends and teachers proud...

To make my family proud...

But most important,

To make myself proud...

I have Faith in myself, and so do the Loved ones all around me. I can feel it.

Let's do this.

- Philip

Manga

Lately, I started reading manga again.
For those who dont know what manga is:
Manga is like a comic. But unlike comics, manga has a deeper storyline, which often have a lifelesson in it.

It's in Japanese, but many of them are translated into english. So it will be no problem for non-japanese readers to read.

I won't say that i am a hardcore mangareader, because I've only read Like two manga's So far. But I guess this will change :)

My first manga i have ever read, was the manga Naruto.

Naruto is one of the most popular manga ever. People from all over the world reads the well known manga. There is even an anime version of Naruto.

It's still ongoing though, but it is reaching it's end. Which is a relieve for me, because I've been following it for years... Longing for the final chapter.

Another Manga which I finished reading today, is the manga: 'Good Ending'.

I've found this manga, while browsing through the manga site: mangareader.com

I was not really looking for a particular manga, but I just used a function with several subjects where I can choose from. I selected the subjects: 'school' and 'sports' , because I can relate to it.

And that's how I found this amazing manga.

The storyline of Good Ending (GE) was in my opinion just awesome!

I mean, I later found out that the story is, besides school and sports, also about romance. The more I read it, the more I loved it.

I had this urge to continue reading. I was completely absorbed in their world.
It was like I was there myself. I could feel the characters feelings.

The feeling I had when I was reading, was so good!

If you are curious about the feeling, I strongly recommend you to give it a go and start reading this particular manga.

I will continue my search for new manga I guess. There are so many manga's to discover!

I hope I will find a manga that will inspire me the way this manga did.

Later!

Good Ending cover

- Philip 

Longing for summer :3

Summer, the best time of the year. A periode of 2 to 3 months with lots of fun.

Spending summertime with your family, your friends, or simply with yourself. Its a pretty good feeling.

The feeling inside me shouts; 'Freedom'!
Do whatever I Like :) No school, no stress, no rules.

Going out with friends, to the beach, playing games, enjoying the pleasing sunrays on your skin. ;)

Can't wait for summerholiday..
I am So longing for it...

But first, I will study hard and graduate So I can enjoy summertime even more :)

Bye!

- Philip

Upcoming Exams

So it has been a long time since I last posted something on my blog.

The reason for this, is because I've been very busy lately with school and stuff. I am currently attending a school of Higher General Secondary Education (HGSE) and i am in my last year.

So in like 2 months, I have my exams. The thoughts of this freaks me out. To be honest, I am very nervous. But I will try my best to graduate.

Well...

Back to my homework i guess..

- Philip

Happy Newyear 2014 and looking back at 2013

It's been a while since I made my last post. 

So I decided to make one right now.

First of all, I'd like to wish you a Happy Newyear!  

2013 was a very special year to me. 

A year full of Happiness and sometimes Sadness.

The best that happened to me last year was without doubt meeting the love of my life.

I will tell you how I met my girlfriend...

 My first girlfriend ever and hopefully, my last.

I met her on a site called Interpals. I was just searching for people from other countries to talk to and learn their language. After like an hour, I felt bored and stopped looking. 

A few days later, I got a mail from interpals.

It contains a message from a girl named Lione

So we started chatting on that site. 

Later, She asked for my Facebook and Whatsapp, So I gave it to her.

On whatsapp we chatted some more and we got to know each other very well.

It happened that we had feelings for each other, so we wanted a relationship with each other. 

I started to have a relationship with her on 21st of November. 1 month later we went on a date. 

It was really fun with her. 

She is just perfect <3

That's how we became boyfriend-girlfriend.

Unfortunately, she lives far away from me. Its like two and a half hour with the train and bus to get to her place. Luckily, we have Skype to keep in touch with each other hehe. :3

My girlfriend, Lione

Unfortunately, we didn't celebrate Newyears eve with each other. I hope we can next year :3

So that's it for 2013. I look forward to have a great year. 

I am sure 2014 is going to be awesome! Hopefully with even more happiness :)

See ya!

- Philip

The girl who was bullied...

Today is a special day...

The day that someone commited suicide...

Now, you probably think; "What's so special about that?" 

Well, I will tell you...

The person who commited suicide was just a teenage girl.

That girl is Amanda Todd

This post is dedicated to this amazing person.

She posted a video on youtube called "My story: Struggling, bullying, suicide and self-harm"  
where she uses flash cards to tell her story. 

This is the link to her video

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vOHXGNx-E7E

The flash cards she has been using in the video contains so much emotion.

I mean, I was touched by every word. 

I don't understand why this could happen. She was bullied a lot because of her "mistakes", 

but everyone makes mistakes right? No one is perfect.

She deserved a second chance, but no one gave it to her...

The thing that bother me the most is, 

Why didn't anyone helped her, support her, comfort her... 

She was a young, beautfull girl who didn't get the chance to live the fullest of her life, 

and that makes me sad...

Her mother, Carol has established the Amanda Todd Trust, Where she receives donations to support anti-bullying awareness education. 

Amanda Todd

Those we love don't go away, They walk beside us everyday.

We love you...

Rest In Peace, Amanda Todd.

- Philip

Inspiration

              So you're probably wondering why my link name of my blog is called "ashafanclub"

Okay, 

I am really bad at coming up with names. 

 So I thought about the first blogger that I have been following.

+Asha Cuthbert is that blogger.

She inspired me to write my own blog.
So I'd like to thank her for that.

 I have to say; It's fun to put my thoughts in it. 

Although its difficult for me to know how to write this correctly.

But how did I know about her?

Well, a video caught my attention a year ago.

It was a video from Asha speaking in cantonese (Chinese) 

I thought;

She looks like a white girl to me, but why can she speak cantonese?

It was really fun to watch her speaking cantonese, because I had never seen a white person speaking it before. Plus I did understand what she was talking about.

In one of her other videos, she explained that she is a mixed race between asian and western.

She has been living in Hong Kong for a long time. So that's why she can speak it.

She has also videos in which she speaks english, so if you only know english, you can watch some of her videos. 

her youtube channel is gcmeanslove.

But back to the blog.

Her blog is really fun to read. So you should definitely go read it. 

- Philip